Meandering thoughts...

I've deleted what I've typed 2 times already. I cannot get my thoughts down without sounding stupid.pointless.whiney.lame.

*sigh*

Trying to explain in a vague and longwinded way isn't working, so I'll just be vague without the backtracking.

I don't require much, but I'd like to be noticed, okay?

That's all I want to say. I'm sure this sour mood will pass and besides, I have to do some crazy art/english homework or my GPA will kill me.

Blargh.

Paper....

I'm writing a paper...that's what I'm going to do today. I've got to get it done in a couple hours because I have to do other homework as well. I also need to free up some space on my camera's memory card. I have about 8 pictures left and I'm going to need room for spring sing photos and concerts.

But, first....the paper about 18th century literature.

~Currently listening to:

Chain Gang Bang Bang by Neon Horse

So sleepy...

I've been working on my art pieces since 7pm and now they are almost done. Just the last finishing touches and I can be free from this assignment. Though I still have some Mansfield Park to read before I can go to bed...such is the life of a college student...

~Currently hummin' in my head:

College Kid by Relient K

Not Cool.

I have too much stuff to do this semester. I am going to die with all these assignments, papers, and art projects. I can't keep up. I don't get enough sleep. I am not eating. My GPA is going to die. I shouldn't even be writing this blog post because it is taking 2 minutes of my time....argh.

~Listening to:

my heart beating out of my chest from stress and anxiety.

My pearly whites

Is it weird to say that I love my dentist? No, no, it is not.

His personality is so great that I am put in a good mood whenever I go. He also remembers details about my life and asks how things are going.

Today we discussed movies.

I think I also might be a little biased because when he first looked inside my mouth he said, "Fantastic!" which made me feel as if I have the best teeth in the world.

And the clincher, guys? He saw my feet almost immediately and said, "Hey, I love your camo Toms."

Oh yes, he's definitely the best dentist around. I also had no cavities. Score.

~Currently humming:

Dental Care by Owl City

Oh, yeah...

Dentist appointment tomorrow. I've got to brush my teeth - Ack!

Study time

It is so hard to study when your eyelids feel like they are slowly sliding down to cover your sleepy eyes. What am I supposed to do? Get up and bounce around to get my mind back on track. Craziness. I think I'll eat something real quick and then try and tackle those last 100 pages of my Clinker novel....ah, this is taking forever, but at least I'll have it done and can start writing the paper for it. Bleh.

Update on Clinker

I only have 133 pages left in this crazy novel of letters written in the 18th century. I might read the rest tonight, but probably not, seeings how it is already 11:40 and I have church, work, spring sing practice, and homework all on the morrow.

On my ever growing to-do list, I need to delete photos off my camera and put them safely on my portable hard drive. I have space for about 40 more and then my 4GB memory card will be full. I guess it would be an understatement to tell you I'm a camera fiend. *shrugs shoulders*

~Currently listening to:

Innocence and Instinct by RED

I just saw this...

So, taking a little study break from my homework, I was perusing the internet when I saw this!!

I so did NOT know that Suzanne Collin's last installment in the Hunger Games Trilogy had a cover and a title! I am such a bad rabid fan. Man...I cannot wait for this to come out. I'm pretty sure the world will stand still the moment I get my hands on this book. I will not eat, I will not sleep, I will not check facebook, I will curl up with this book and probably shed tears. If Peeta dies I do not know how I will console myself. But at the same time, I'm starting to feel for Gale as well....but Peeta needs to get the girl, okay?

Oh my goodness! August 24, 2010! Why are you so far away?

~listening to:

Rocks Into Rivers by Seabird (this makes me so happy - I am already in love with this CD. Piano based rock and moody lyrics with a soulful voice - I can't get enough. love. love.)

Today...

I must get a lot of things accomplished. I feel like I did a decent amount of work yesterday, but I've got to step it up today. I really can't lollygag around on the internet randomly checking twitter/facebook to see what other people are doing. Here's my to-do list.

1. Finish The Expedition of Humphry Clinker.

2. Start Mansfield Park.

3. Write outline for NT class.

4. Write 500 words for Creative Writing.

5. Make 15 art pieces.

6. Write a novel analysis for Clinker (1250 words).

So...that's what I have to do. This is just over the weekend, man. And it seems like I have this kind of load every weekend! What is up? This is why my blog posts are scarce. Bleh.

~Currently listening to on the radio:

Never Going Back To Okay by The Afters

Reading.

Lately I haven't read any non-textbooks. Sure, I have many a happy hour reading Jane Austen's novels for that class, but the majority of my reading is not for pleasure and fun. I am working on The Expedition of Humphry Clinker by Tobias Smollett right now. I am going to have to write a research paper on this novel as well. I am not looking forward to it because I am afraid I won't be able to delve deeper into the text and analyze it fully. *sigh* I also have several goodreads books I won that I haven't been able to read because I'm trying so hard to stay on top of schoolwork. I'm looking forward to spring break when I can hopefully manage to squeeze in a book or two. Maybe.

~Currently listening to:

Always Yours by Ruth

I got a blog award!

I got a lovely little award from my friend, Amelia over @ Imagination In Focus!

The rules for this Bliss (Happy 101) Award are that I must list 10 things that make me happy, then pass it along to 10 other bloggers.

Okay, 10 things that make me happy:

1. I love free music downloads.

2. Family Force 5 concerts.

3. Goodreads giveaways.

4. Late night wacky conversations with friends who get me out of my sour moods.

5. Children that let me hold them.

6. People who read my blog.

7. Chocolate (hahaha, enough said!)

8. Macbook computers.

9. Toms Shoes

10. Exciting new young adult series I can't wait to get my hands on!

And I pass this award on to:

• Beth @ Beth Kephart Books
• Amelia @ Imagination In Focus (she sent it to me!)
• Sara @ Along For The Ride
• Janette @ Janette Rallison's Blog
• Miss Erin @ Miss Erin
• Shannon @ Squeetus
• Wideyed @ To Convey A Double Meaning
• Stephanie @ Yarn Harlot
• Julie @ The Book Gargoyle
• Ashes @ Up From The Ashes

Announcement

I got accepted to conference.

English major in an art class

So I'm working on an art project right now. It's probably going to take forever because I've never done anything like this before in my whole life. I didn't take art in school and I've never even really doodled. I wouldn't be in the this class if it weren't required for my photography minor. But I think this class is going to drive me crazy, man. I just spent a hour drawing and shading my face on a 4 by 5 piece of paper and I'm STILL not happy with the result. My eyes are too big and lopsided. But I have 5 more pieces to do before tonight because I will have absolutely NO time tomorrow and it's due on Tuesday at noon.

It is definitely not the best rendition of myself, but considering it being the first face I have ever attempted to draw, I'd say it was decent.

I probably should stop writing though and get back to work...I have 5 more different versions to make of my face.

~Currently listening to:

Ocean Eyes by Owl City

Mental Note

A friendly reminder to myself for future purposes and random internet blog readers:

When it is snowing outside make sure you are not wearing cloth shoes that will get wet when you step into a pile of slush. In doing this you will not walk around campus with soaked socks and pruned feet.

~Currently singing:

Fire It Up by Thousand Foot Krutch

I never really thought this...

But I guess my moods are kind of roller coaster. One moment I'm really happy and then something happens that turns my thoughts sour. I am not happy right now and I can't stand it. I'd say I was a pretty cheerful person but the past week has been so crazy. There have been a lot of Not Cool Things and some pretty Crazy Cool Things.

But I really need this slight depression to go away. I have things to do and I'm working on my crazy schoolwork that is trying to take over my life.

I know I kind of mentioned Stalk Week in my last post...but I'm going to explain when I'm in a better mood because then it will be more exciting.

Blargh.

~currently obsessed with

Hello Hurricane by Switchfoot

Da da da dun!

All I've got to say is this:

STALK WEEK!

Okay, I'll explain later....

~Song I'm currently playing in my head:

Free by Switchfoot

I'm waiting....I'm waiting...

So....I submitted a couple selections of my writing to this national conference that our English Honor Society goes to every year....

I submitted them November 20, 2009. They said they'd inform the people whether they got in or not on January 30, 2010. So I patiently waited and did my schoolwork and basically forgot about it until a week before it was going to be announced. When January 30 came around I kept checking my email.

Nothing.

And then I checked the official website and it said they were going to inform people on February 1. and also post them online. So I was going, "okay, that's nice, we will find out on Monday..."

Today's monday and now they've said they are having technical difficulties and will sent out emails before February 2.

Oh my goodness.

Heavy Thoughts

A person at my school took their own life this past weekend. I didn't know them, but I still feel all these crazy emotions. My heart breaks for their family and all that knew them. The day it happened I felt like I had a cloud over my head, constantly reminding me that someone was no longer alive. I felt guilty every time I laughed or had a happy thought because I was alive and they weren't.

This was kind of close to home. I'm just praying.