Annoyed.

I am such a dweeb.

I avoid doing things even though I know FULLY WELL I'll regret not doing them earlier.

Like this paper, for instance.

I like pretending it does not exist.

But I have to get it done this weekend. And I've been avoiding working on it all day. If I don't finish it tomorrow I will be one big bottle of stress and that is never a good thing.

Also, because I'm in such a great mood everything I play in my iTunes library sounds sub-par and I can't keep still. I keep skipping to the next song, rotating CDs because nothing suits my mood. This is exceedingly annoying.

But now, I am going to pick out quotes for my paper and maybe do an outline. That way I can tell myself, "just write this paragraph and then you can take a break..."

I really want some chocolate.

Paper....

I'm writing a paper...that's what I'm going to do today. I've got to get it done in a couple hours because I have to do other homework as well. I also need to free up some space on my camera's memory card. I have about 8 pictures left and I'm going to need room for spring sing photos and concerts.

But, first....the paper about 18th century literature.

~Currently listening to:

Chain Gang Bang Bang by Neon Horse

Not Cool.

I have too much stuff to do this semester. I am going to die with all these assignments, papers, and art projects. I can't keep up. I don't get enough sleep. I am not eating. My GPA is going to die. I shouldn't even be writing this blog post because it is taking 2 minutes of my time....argh.

~Listening to:

my heart beating out of my chest from stress and anxiety.

Study time

It is so hard to study when your eyelids feel like they are slowly sliding down to cover your sleepy eyes. What am I supposed to do? Get up and bounce around to get my mind back on track. Craziness. I think I'll eat something real quick and then try and tackle those last 100 pages of my Clinker novel....ah, this is taking forever, but at least I'll have it done and can start writing the paper for it. Bleh.

Update on Clinker

I only have 133 pages left in this crazy novel of letters written in the 18th century. I might read the rest tonight, but probably not, seeings how it is already 11:40 and I have church, work, spring sing practice, and homework all on the morrow.

On my ever growing to-do list, I need to delete photos off my camera and put them safely on my portable hard drive. I have space for about 40 more and then my 4GB memory card will be full. I guess it would be an understatement to tell you I'm a camera fiend. *shrugs shoulders*

~Currently listening to:

Innocence and Instinct by RED

Today...

I must get a lot of things accomplished. I feel like I did a decent amount of work yesterday, but I've got to step it up today. I really can't lollygag around on the internet randomly checking twitter/facebook to see what other people are doing. Here's my to-do list.

1. Finish The Expedition of Humphry Clinker.

2. Start Mansfield Park.

3. Write outline for NT class.

4. Write 500 words for Creative Writing.

5. Make 15 art pieces.

6. Write a novel analysis for Clinker (1250 words).

So...that's what I have to do. This is just over the weekend, man. And it seems like I have this kind of load every weekend! What is up? This is why my blog posts are scarce. Bleh.

~Currently listening to on the radio:

Never Going Back To Okay by The Afters

Reading.

Lately I haven't read any non-textbooks. Sure, I have many a happy hour reading Jane Austen's novels for that class, but the majority of my reading is not for pleasure and fun. I am working on The Expedition of Humphry Clinker by Tobias Smollett right now. I am going to have to write a research paper on this novel as well. I am not looking forward to it because I am afraid I won't be able to delve deeper into the text and analyze it fully. *sigh* I also have several goodreads books I won that I haven't been able to read because I'm trying so hard to stay on top of schoolwork. I'm looking forward to spring break when I can hopefully manage to squeeze in a book or two. Maybe.

~Currently listening to:

Always Yours by Ruth

Whose idea was this anyway?

Oh right, me.

I signed up for all these classes.

I decided that three English classes and an Art class would go great together.

Yep, allll me.

Lucky little me.

So, that might be why my blog posts mysteriously disappear, or, ahem, fail to appear in the first place. I'll be so crazy busy doing Art when I'm an English major while reading for all my English classes.

Real smooth.

~Currently listening to:

the sound of my computer whirring...